forward and appendix

the last post is so long, for which i apologize. however, i do think that all of my evaluations were needed concerning myself. i have had a chance to read through it again, and see where i stand with most of my observations.

i feel that some of my ideas were conflated with material that i would convey differently to differing crowds. i have most likely discussed most of these if not a few with several people at one time or another. i might have described situations or opinions in a different manner to you, for which i will claim that i was being honest as possible to you at the time. upon much of my evaluating according to theories of developement that we discussed in this class, i found out new things about my motives and feelings and my interpretation therein in was greatly influenced by the requirements of the assignment. so, please, again take it for what it is and if you have any questions, comments or concerns about my own evaluation of myself or use of your own words, let me know. call me, text me, email me, if you do not feel comfortable commenting on the post.

as an afterthought, reading this made me realize how much i have changed since i wrote it. i was in a difficult stretch of my life, getting in trouble with BYU honor code being the reason i had to take the class. i have since been in a situation, a probably-not-by-chance-most-likely-divine-intervention-capacity/condition that has changed my life. it is amazing how one person can penetrate all defenses and bring me to such an emotionally fragile stage (as mentioned in past posts), while lifting me up to believe and aspire to something greater than myself. my mentors were correct concerning healthy interpersonal relationships... however, i am not claiming perfection in my relationship with cassandra, i see that it is a beginning to something beautiful and exquisite. my only fear is that i will screw this up somehow. God willing, i plan on keeping her around for a long time. how is that for progression?